I had a pretty tough exterior. Over the years, one might call me "unapproachable." I had an unapproachable image. I had short sometimes pink, sometimes blue, sometimes purple hair. I wore a chain wallet. I was a smoker. I did drugs. I had a look that screamed don't mess with me. I had an attitude to match. I didn't take shit from anyone. No one could tell me what to do, especially because they knew not to fuck with me.
Then I met him. He softened me up a bit. He was what filled my angry void. I learned to love life and start to accept who I was. I no longer needed to put up a front. I didn't need the attention anymore. He taught me that I could be loved.
The exterior has changed over the years. I traided in the bottles of hair dye and chain wallet for high heels and a purse. I haven't touched any kind of illegal anything for a few years. I am proud to call myself a non smoker.
Although the outside has changed, the inside has not. I have an open mind. I stick up for what I believe in. I stick up for what I am passionate about. I am a risk taker. I am not afraid to speak my mind. I REFUSE to let someone walk all over me and my loved ones. I am brutally honest.
Why do you hide when the real me is exposed? Are you embarrassed of me? Are you embarrassed of what I say, or even worse; what I might say? Do you live in fear? Do I make you anxious? Is it a problem that I stand up for what I believe in? That I am your legs for you when you won't even stand on your own two feet? That I say what you might really be feeling?
Maybe it's wrong of me, but at least I can go to sleep knowing that I am not a coward or a liar. I also go to sleep at night with many questions. Would you do the same for me? Would you walk with me and for me when I am unable to? Would you stand up for me, or will you go crawling away, afraid that you might hurt someone?
Well, in the process that person is not the one you should worry about hurting. You should worry about hurting me. you assume because I am strong I am able to take it. Well, it's not that easy. I need you to be by my side. I need to know that you would walk the line and talk the talk with me. I need you there, because if you are not, then I have nobody else.
