I am really struggling a with the question of whether or not to do a certain job. This past summer my brother and sister-in-law asked me to be their nanny. They asked if I would be their nanny starting in January for my now 3 month old niece. When they asked me to do this I was out of a job so it was a very generous and kind offer on their part because they were trying to help me out. Unfortunately, the circumstances have changed in my life and my husband and I now have a career and we are down to one car. I work from home, so I drive him to and from work, and occasionally to his master’s classes. We also live in a whole different state, so the drive is quite a distance away from them. Our schedule is a pretty busy one and it has made me becoming their nanny in January an issue.

I still want to be their nanny, but my problem with it all is that if I do it I feel like I wouldn't be able to be as dependable as they would need me to be. I told my brother and sister-in-law about this and told them that I didn't think it was going to work out, and they originally said it would be fine.  However, now they are saying that they really need us to work it out. Needless to say, I am feeling like its all on my shoulders. So my husband and I are working hard to find a good solution. We suggested to them that they could drop her off at our place and that we would equip ourselves to be able to take care of our niece. We would stock the place with a carseat, curious george merchandise, aden and anais blankets, these, etc so that we would be able to take good care of her while she is here. We're going to have kids pretty soon anyway, so it wouldn't be a big deal to buy all the stuff we would need. They are still contemplating that idea, and I hope that they accept it or come up with something better.

My hope is that this whole situation would hinder our relationships with each other if I decide that I'm not able to do it. I really care about my family and I want to be able to help them, not hinder them. I'm really doing the best I can to make the right and best decision possible and look at it from every angle. My goal is for there to be a positive outcome no matter what. Even the solution its not exactly what they want, it could still fulfill their need. I know in my heart that that is what they want too. I'm feeling pretty overwhelmed with always thinking about this stuff, so I’m going to watch Mansfield Park on Hulu for now to help me veg out for a while. A Jane Austen movie is perfect for making putting you in a better mood. Peace.