Today JLO, my baby, turns 30. Where does the time go?
I have tried to warn her, new mother that she is, that time will fly for her too and before she knows it, that tiny little baby will be turning 30. I don't think she completely believes me, but the fact that he is already outgrowing clothes is making it real for her!
I have been having a difficult time recently, feeling very unconnected to this whole grandparent thing. I had hoped that there would be an ongoing connection, through the computer, that would allow me to at least see this child and be able to watch the changes and growth. Okay, I'd still be unrelated to his daily life, but at least I'd recognize him if I happened to see him--and vice versa. But it wasn't happening and I didn't want to turn into one of those demanding mothers who imposes her expectations on her kids. Instead I grew increasingly hurt and unhappy. Never said I was overly mature... But when I spoke to JLO today, we discussed this and have come to a place that should work for both of us.
For those who are interested, the month-aversary photos are posted at www.flickr.com/photos/9282510@N03/
In other news, I think I am in love with my foot doctor. He takes the time to actually listen to me and is willing to try to figure out what we can do to make me pain-free. At the moment he has jerry rigged (now where did that expression originate?) an adaptation for my orthodic to try to achieve just that, and I have to say that I am feeling the best I have in years. The true test will be when I get on the treadmill, but this is the first time in years that I am walking around happily. It's funny though--I find I'm still walking a bit tentatively because I'm so conditioned to having it hurt. I almost have to retrain myself for walking in comfort.
Last session with my tutee was a disaster--she is just nowhere near ready for the placement exam she is planning to take this summer. Majorly bummed me out. I am feeling frustrated because I don't know what to do for her that would be more helpful, but I also think she is much more realistic about how it's going to go. Up to now I think she believed that she could quiz out of remedial classes, and she seems to know that isn't going to happen. Big sigh.
I'm thinking about rearranging our bedroom furniture so that the bed is by the window. It just seems like it would be a nice place to lie at night and I think it would open up the room more. But I'm a little concerned that it would make it lighter on weekend mornings, and the husband likes to sleep in--if you consider 7am sleeping in (which it definitely is, when you get up at 4am every day!). I'm in the mood to rearrange several rooms--don't know what the deal is. We've lived in houses for 10 years and I've NEVER moved a thing, but right now, after just one year, I'd change a lot.
The tomatoes are growing in leaps and bounds--we actually have cherry tomatoes that will be ready to pick soon. Finally got planting dates right after last year's disasters.
KT comes for a visit in a couple of weeks. We're really looking forward to that. She's been in Boston this week so she and I haven't done our usual every-other-day phone chats and I'm finding that I'm missing them.
How did I get so lucky with these girls of ours?!!!?
