This has been a messed up week. Just about everything that had been scheduled to happen got rescheduled, leaving me with cancelled plans and what should have been 'bonus' time, but instead proved to be frustrating. I like knowing what's going on and planning ahead; I'm not so good with utilizing unexpected free time wisely. So it's been a lot of wasted time, more unmet intentions and some stupidity along the way.

When my trainer forgot to show up on Monday, I went through the machines alone and chose the weight based on how things felt. I know certain things--very strong legs, not so much for the arms. I was rather proud of myself for sticking with it and pushing myself. In fact I've been at the gym every morning this week--that's what I'm aiming for in cardio but this is the first week I've actually done it. But it turns out that I pushed a little too hard with one of the machines and I am now, 3 days later, unable to straighten my arms (my weaker right one is worse than the left--the left one will straighten with much pain but the right one--can't do it). It is more annoying than anything and I am mostly curious to see how long it takes to recover.

Went to see Sunshine Cleaning yesterday. I had enjoyed Little Miss Sunshine and liked the previews I had seen for this one, so I expected a quirky, dark comedy, which it was.  But it centered around motherless daughters, and even after all these years, having lost my mother when I was 11, this is not a theme I am especially comfortable with.  I went through enough crap dealing with my own situation; I don't really care to watch someone else find their way through it as a form of entertainment.  And it completely blindsided me--nowhere in the preview or the newspaper blurb did it 'warn' me.

I did manage to sort my way through several bags of clothing that have been unused for over a year now.  I love purging my life of things and am determined to whittle it down as much as is realistically possible.  Of course the inability to send things to the kids remains a frustration, but I'm always delighted to see the rest of it leave the house.  If we're ever audited by the IRS it will be because they refuse to believe just how much we give to Goodwill!  I also sorted out our trip to see the kids/go to a wedding this summer--car, hotels, flights, everyone's schedules, as there is much coming and going from place to place and among 5-8 of us.  I do enjoy organizing, especially trips and I especially like having them to look forward to.  I sometimes think it would be a lovely surprise if the husband planned a trip for us, but realistically I know part of my enjoyment of our travels has been the research and planning I've done for each of them.

Off to the gym, then tutoring, then one set of service people has rescheduled for this afternoon.  We'll see...