I just wanted to lose myself in you, and I did. You became my life my world and simply put my all. In my mind I could not even think of myself anymore without you in my life. In finding you I lost myself.
I never understood why this is something you could not do. When everything I do revolves around you, you seem to have a world where I don’t even exist.
It took me some time to realize that I was the one who was wrong. They say that we should not just live for ourselves, but the worst thing a person can do is to lose themselves that they forget their own needs and wants.
I am now trying to find that which I have lost, the part of me that withered away from neglect. Don’t get me wrong, The happiest moments in my life can be found on the parts when we were together, this is something that I know to my very core. But I have to live for myself and no one else.
Whatever happens now, whether you will hate me or just forget about me or maybe even someday forgive me? You will always be the one who taught me how to love. May you find the person who will love you the way you were meant to be loved, the way I was not able to love you.