Stay strong girl. We all going the rough times. I have had to pawn my 2 laptops twice already and believe it will happen again. Right now my car is running on fumes and my kitchen is don to bread crumbs and watered down drinks. I keep trying to figure out where I a making the mistakes but can't seem to figure it out completely. Other than locking myself in the house except for work and the kids to school, eating the most basic of meals and giving up the few wants we still have (such as internet and house phone), I don't know what else to do to stay afloat. Every month that goes by I am able to just barely get by, but I also come closer to failing every time so it's only a matter of time before I won't be able to get by anymore unless I find a decent solution.
All I have to keep me going is those 2 kids who spend their entire days fighting with each other, eating of playing on their PC or Nintendo Wii, completely unaware that if mommy and daddy don't find a solution soon, we could easily be without power, food or even lose the car. I have to keep trying, for their sake. I have faith something will show up soon, I have faith things will eventually work themselves out. I just hope it happens soon because I would like to keep my sanity before it does.
We have to be strong, we gotta keep going. Believe me when I say I understand how you can feel alone. I feel the same way, not having anyone to lend a hand, to talk to or even to know you are not the only one. But I know it's not true and I have funiture that I acquired recently thru fellow church members and co-workers to prove it. I just hate letting people know how bad I am doing in order to provide for my family. But I have no control over that.
Right now, I will be praying to God that my less than a 1/4 tank of gas can run me till tomorrow, otherwise I will be screwed.