I recently started graduate studies at a very prestigious school, reputed to have one of the best programs in the county for my chosen field. But lately I'm wondering if I made a mistake. My boyfriend of 2 1/2 years lives about 3 1/2 hours away from me. He is working on his masters in business administration. We will finish at the same time and are planning on getting married after we both finish school. Sounds like a good plan right? Both finish our respective degrees, and holding hands leap into the world, taking it by storm. Problem is, I hate being away from him. I could have gone to school where he is, but it isn't as good of a program. The question now is, do I quit where I am now and move to be with him or tough it out for the next 21 months?
He has been wonderfully supportive, encouraging me to make the decision for myself rather than for him. He has promised to support me no matter what my decision, but I can't help but feel like I made a bad choice. I really like the school I am at and studying psychology, but I feel like something is missing. I can't decide if it is mearly my boyfriend that I am missing, or if maybe I'm not where I am ment to be. I've always been good at school and maybe I'm just scared that I can't hack it here.
I feel like I need to pray, turn this problem over to someone more qualified to handle it, but then I feel like I am coping out, not really taking responsibility for my own life and decisions. I've never been much of a prayer and I flip flop on whether I believe in a hgher power (that is a whole other blog!) Are my feelings are the product of a bad week or something more?
