Hello. (Im from finland, so my english aint great)
Couple of years now i have been thinking about leaving this world.. wild things came to my mind.. I have been thinking about moving in some monk monastary or so..
heh.. well.. i feel that every other life would be better than mine..
well.. how did i start feel like this.. couple years earlier i had this girl..(yep. always there is a girl)
our relationship was short.. one week.. no more or no less..
he totally dumped me.. yep (like always)
i haven't had any alcoholical problems etc.. just these thoughts..
i have been talking with friends alot.. heck.. i have been talking with different psychiatrist's too..
im taking pills to my depression at this moment..
in these two years i have been scaring about getting any close relationship with some girl's.. well i have been talking with some.. it just frightens me. .
well.. how did i found this place?
i searched google for easy way to kill myself.
well.. maby i dont like about thought killing myself.. but i would like to go some other place.. like Himalayas.. heh..
well well.. thanks..