Here I go...
I'm 18 yeras old and I have never been in serious relationship, I mean it. At the beginning I thought it was because I was too loud, or to slow, sarcastict, friendly, or it was because of my clothes, my hair maybe because I was not I don't know... atracttive, Blonde, Bonita whatever, But it looks like that my problem has not nothing to do with the way I look, in fact eventhoug that I weigth 160 lbs (20 pounds more that I should) people (by people I mean friends, strangers, teachers) keep telling me that I'm really "pretty" and "cute" ( maybe they just said that to be nice, but I don't think that everybody is saying that just to be nice I mean is like they are lying to me, friends don't do that right, right???) and they just swear that I got a boyfriend and all that crap, and to me it looks impossible that I actually had never had a REAL REAL boyfriend, I mean it is almost stupid you know come on!!! of course you know, it is not that I'm an alien or something like that, I got my first kiss, I had held hands with a guy and everything but it is not real, is like, it just last for 3 weeks and it is gone, and the I think what went wrong?? and I just don't ge it I mean is Ok it it hapenned with one guy but all the guys that I liked. I just kissed a guy who I really liked and he said that he liked me (he said that, I swea,r he said I think you are really outgoing and a really liked you ...liar) maybe I'm a bad kisser (wait a minute NOT I"M NOT) that was last thursday today monday he hasn't call me yet and sent him a message and he hasn't answerd me what is going on?? anyways the point is that and just tired of this I mean sometimes is saturday night and I'm stuck im my house watching the 4400 jesus!! I mean is not like I need a man by my side all the time I mean I go out, I go and watch amovie, I go to the beach I do a lot of things but it doesn't feel the same way. ALL my friends got boyfriend while I, I'm here writing this...So here is the plan starting tomorrow I'm going hunting I will date, date and date for 40 days just like the movie 40 days and 40 nigths well he was not going to have sex but anyways my goal: GET A BOYFRIEND just that, if by the end of day on august 26th I dont have a boyfriend that's it sister I give up I will remain single until I turn up 25 I will not try anymore I will not fall in love I will become a nun (I just joking about the nun thing) I will not have sex, kisses, hugs, thoughts about another man in my life, impossible nothing is impossible I think just wish me good luck fellas!!!
