I'm writing to 10 different people, some may read it, some won't. The only catch is that I can't say names. So only you I (and maybe the people who it's for) know who it's to.
1) I know we don't see each other anymore or talk, but I'll always remember those days at camp. The late night chats on the computer after you taught me how to install aol. That walk through the woods, and CC skiing, even though I'm sure you'd rather have downhilled all the time. Thank you for the memories and for showing me what a true friend is. Thank you for being mature and seeking a friendship with me. I'm sorry if I ever hurt you.
2) I miss you. You always pushed me away when I tried to show you love. You've been told that "real men don't cry." I hope you know it's not true. I hope you realize how much we love you, and how much God loves you. Give Him your past and let him heal you. Give Him your future and live happily. As much as I miss you, I think you're happier in that big state.
3) You're such a great role model, and I truly hope to be like you someday. I'm so glad you're not only a great role model, but a friend as well. Thank you for understanding me and for loving me when I least deserve it. Thank you for always being there for me, and for knowing good balance in discipline. Thank you for the encouragement you are. I love you more than anyone else on this earth.
4) I've tried talking to you about Jesus, and I know it's hard to believe. You said you felt prayers at one point. Well, I've been praying for you. God has put such a strong desire within me for you. I want to see you in heaven someday, and I'll continue to pray for you. Remember that even though you don't feel or see Him, He's there, waiting for you, testing you. He loves you so much.
5) I know life can hurt sometimes. I've been through what you're going through. Years ago I'd cry myself to sleep at night because my "friends" ditched me. I know it hurts, but you're so mature and strong, I know you handle it well. I can see the change in you this past year. You're such a confident young lady of Jesus. You have so many talents and abilities. Just being you is one of them. I love you and I want you to know that I'll always be there for you.
6) I doubt you can read this, but if you can, I want you to know I miss you. I know you're happier in heaven. You were always so giving and sacraficial. You always put others before yourself. We would have gotten along so well even now. Shopping, baking, organizing, planning. I miss you so much, but I know God's timing is perfect. I'm so blessed and thankful for the years I did have with you. Thank you for showing me what it means to be like Jesus.
7) I don't know where we'll end up. I don't know what's going to happen in the long run. I know it'll all work out the way Jesus wants it to in the end. Sometimes it doesn't seem right, but everything always works itself out. We have so many memories, so many good memories. I swear, I'll cherish all of them even years to come. The way you are with people amazes me. There's a reason you have so many friends. Thank you for showing me how special I am. Thank you for making me feel like the most beautiful girl ever. Thank you for being so patient with me. I love you.
8) I doubt my words mean much to you. I know my mom thinks I'm crazy. You've inspired me so much. Through your words, your actions, your difference. The way you are makes me want to jump out of average. You're such an inspiration.
9) I miss your friendship. I don't know if we would still be friends if we still saw each other. I about had a heart attack that day you almost died. I prayed for you, and praise God that you made a full recovery. I won't forget growing up with you. You were like a sister to me. I won't forget how we'd fight and that storm at my house as we waited in my basement. I won't forget all your kittens and how I admired you because you had so many. lol. Running through the sprinkler at your house and all the things we used to do. It's fun seeing you once in a blue moon and wondering what you're doing in your life and how you're liking college.
10) I'm glad you finally found a guy who's perfect for you, and I hope everything works out. I can't wait to meet him, hopefully this week. You're such a sweet person, and I pray that you always stay close to Jesus. I'm glad that we're closer now and can keep in touch easier. I'll remember the few memories we had from our childhood. Gelena, Florida and everything. All our stupid jokes and secrets. All our childish pranks and rivalry with our brothers. I love you. You're an amazing woman.
~Sarah
