With palms together,
Good Morning Everyone,
The day dawns with a splendid light over the mountains to the east. The Autumn air is cool and begs to be breathed. My heart is silent, content, and I know that on the one hand its a delicious state, but on the other hand, dangerous. We should not revel in contentment, but rather be content as we raise ourselves up to engage the world.
I find myself deciding to be at home more and more often. I find myself being silent more and more often, even when out in public. Words just are not coming to me or if they do, I sense they would just add sound to the air which is complete as it is. I study. I meditate.
On occasion I have the fleeting thought that I might be depressed, but no, I am not depressed: I am content.
Some afternoons, I am very tired and by seven or eight, after taking my evening drugs, I am ready to lay down in bed. I take ten drugs a day, all but one of which cause drowsiness. People worry about me and ask as to my health. I never quite know how to respond, vacillating between being thankful for their consideration and annoyed at the question. I ran four and a half miles yesterday morning with the last half mile being speed repeats. I am healthy and fit. My clock is just not the same as most people's clocks. Those drugs are to stave off the effects of a prematurely aging brain. They are working, but they work with a late afternoon, early evening cost. So it goes.
What's my point? I don't think I have one. I do think we do what we do and are what we are as a result. My world is changing. As is yours, I am sure. What's important is how we respond to those changes.
May you be content within yourself as you engage your world.
A bow to you.
PS. I will be teaching a class in Contemplative Judaism beging this Sunday at 2:00 PM at Temple Beth El in Las Cruces. If you are interested and are in the area, please consider joining me!
