Lately I've had alot on my plate.
First of all, Jayne my workmate is on holidays for three weeks, and she went to Port Vila. The lucky thing of course deserves a break. But I find myself wishing I was there too. And our boss has already badmouthed her twice since she's left, not only to me but also to one of the travel agents that work with us. Not very professional coming from my boss, she sounded more bitchy than critic.
Second of all, one of my mates in Port Vila said there was one job opportunity, but it's for something for which I have no experience at all. Some kind of management in sales. *Gulp* me? a manager? I'm not enough of a bully to be one I'm afraid, heh! But the idea is tormenting me.
Third, I would love to go back to Vanuatu, but it's not an option without my parents, and since it's not in there plans to go back just yet, then I'm kinda stuck here. They're not kidnapping me, lol. It's just that in Vila I'd be by myself and when life threw stones at me when I was living there by myself I had no one to really help me get through it and support me. I need them, it's vital.
Number 4, I havent heard from Darren for over a week now. I know my weekend there with him didnt commit us to anything. But it would be nice to know how he's doing since last time he wrote he was really down. I called him to lift his spirits and I think I did. I called again to check on him and he sounded fine. But ever since that phone call, nada. That's how it goes I suppose.... How I wish I was lesbian. This is making me angry and sounding like a psycho-ex so I'll just move on to:
5, My brother is moving out from his studio next month on the 15th. I'm supposed to move in his studio as soon as he gets his new appartment. But seeing that the rent is worth half my pay check (litteraly) I'm not sure if I can do this. The thing is he said he would be handing me down his old washing machine, the oven and probably some of his furniture so that could be really cool for starters but what if I finally decide I want to go back to Vila. I've never been good at saving but paying such a big rent every month not counting food, water and electricity will ruin me.
6, I hate being an adult, I hate taking decisions, I hate being 23 I feel so old, and we're already in JUNE, gosh time just flies and I feel like I havent done any good in my life. So i'm thinking about giving my blood in a couple of weeks. I'll probably faint but I dont care, maybe being light headed will help my mind finding solutions.
7, these thoughts wake me at around to or three in the morning and then I cant get any decent sleep. So I look like a zombie when I step in the office at 8.00am......... Zombies are scary, so why isnt any one scared of me? Maybe I should growl.
Eight, shit i need to have my eyes checked, I think me eyesight is getting worse. But that's probably just due to lack of sleep.
Nine, period pain sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!
