I can see the abundant lists of discussion topics buzzing with points and counterpoints and for the first time in a really long time I'm choosing not to join. Anyone who knows me knows how opinionated I am, or rather that I enjoy having my say at anything I can claim some knowledge of or experience with. But I've definitely been inflicted with a strong dose of apathy. I still feel the same way I do about many issues political and otherwise but I'm not half as intent on sharing with everyone else at this point.

This is not to say that I don't wish I had a greater drive to seek some greater social change but I think my focus is more on a personal level. This may largely be a reflection of my job. I work with elementary school kids all day in a before/after school program. Though far reaching policies are important to protect kids overall what it really comes down to is spending a little bit of individual time with each child and as anyone knows who has ever worked with kids, played with kids, or been a kids themselves, different kids require different amounts of your time and energy.

So now I'm looking for someone who can share a little bit of their time and energy to focus on me in return for my own, and at $13/hr mine doesn't come cheap, but if she's cute and can pull me out of this apathetic or rather, pathetic hole maybe I can look past the price.

But for now I'm taking a step away from trying to get all of these rich assholes to be better people to the world and focusing on just trying to be a better person to the people I see day in and day out. At my focus right now shows much more progress than trying to change the world $80 billion at a time.