It's all about the $$$ anymore. The humanity part left a long time ago.
My pain management doctor (and the one before this one) don't even want to see patients anymore unless they are laying face down under a fluoroscope. I swear, I cannot remember the last time I ever saw one that wasn't running around with a mask (how appropriate as they charge upwards of $800 or more per fucking shot) and a lead apron trying to inject as many backs as they can in a day. When I do get to talk to him (usually AFTER I have asked a few dozen times) he doesn't remember me from doodley-squat.
I shit you not, not even 6 months....^ mother-humping months after putting a spinal cord stimulator in my back (which requires fusing part of it to your spine and embedding the battery for it in the fat of your lower back...AND charging the insurance around $100K) he came into the exam room in his little apron and mask after one of my 'can I PUHLEEZE see my doctor instead of the PA..PUHLEEZ events, he looked me right in the eye and asked if I had ever had a spinal cord stimulator put in my back. God as my witness. AND I WAS ASKING TO SEE HIM BECAUSE THE FUCKING THING WASN'T DOING WHAT IT WAS SUPPOSED TO!
I could write a fucking book. I really could.
It's all about the money. These fuckers have set up (by fuckers I am referring to pain management doctors I know) a conveyor belt of people in desperate...and I cannot emphasize the word 'desperate' enough...in desperate need of relief from pain and..AND someone who understands this and actually listens to them..remembers their faces, their problems, their names, AND WHAT FUCKING HARDWARE THEY HAVE MEDICALLY FUSED TO THEIR BODIES...not someone who is trying to figure out how to squeeze in 50 more injections in a work week.
It's because they do this that the government is cracking down on the medications they prescribe...because they keep such shitty charts and don't know their patients. When they are audited or asked about a specific patient, they can't even remember what procedures they have performed on them!!!!! I've laid eyes on charts not properly updated...I've argued with nurses and doctors who couldn't remember the last time they saw me, injected me, or wrote a script. (I actually had to have the drugstore pull the records to shut up one nurse who claimed they NEVER prescribed me ANYTHING)
And people look at me..up and down...and want to know why I look like shit or seemed so depressed. Or worse, say things like 'Maybe if you got some excersize'....
I think the only reason I keep any sanity at all is because I have come to expect the worse and have found I am disappointed a lot less by doing so. And that pisses me off more than I can say.