Odd how something like this thread can be of help to me over a different situation I'm facing right now. But I guess you can still call it a demon that spawned older unprocessed demons. "Welcoming the rain" and knowing it will help me get stronger really helps me.
Plus I've decided to do differently than what I usually have and have long talks with people around me I love plus somewhat strangers to me as well, just to have it all examined by as many as possible before I even want to worry about my issue again. So on top of a challenge, I've put myself through another challenge, which I think all works out wonderful for me. In just 2-3 days I feel much better already, and everything doesn't seem so impossible any more.
I definitely need to go through a lot to get back on track though, but it's bright.
I hope you figure out what works for you soon Panndora. As you can see you do mean a lot to all the wonderful people here.